This week started off rough, to say the very least. I felt so low, so defeated. Fortunately, later that same day I did a little thinking "out loud" and convinced myself to change my thinking: I was doing okay, I really was, and getting upset about slow progress wasn't going to help me move any faster. All I could do was keep moving forward - and that's exactly what I did.
I kept moving forward. And I'm so, so glad I did...
I kept moving forward. And I'm so, so glad I did...
I'M IN THE 180's!
fin-a-freaking-Lly!
Not only did I FINALLY get into the 180's, but I had a MAJOR weight loss this week: down 3.4 pounds! I DEFINITELY needed to see a good number like that after the long string of bad weigh-ins I've had over the last five weeks. And I mean, this wasn't just a good number, this was a GREAT number! I'm not sure if it was the result of upping my calories, or if I was simply due for the scale to cooperate, but either way, I'm so incredibly happy about and proud of it, and I really, really hope it's a sign of great things to come.
I really think I'm in a good place right now. Granted, I just had an amazing weigh-in, so I know that's a big part of it, but even before I saw the number on the scale this morning I was starting to feel better - and really, I started just shortly after my last [horrible] weigh-in. So I'm not going to attribute all of my new-found positivity to only my weigh-in. Instead, I'm going to attribute it in part to the fact that I don't think I've ever been able to "stick with it" throughout a five-week stall. That's over a month! In the past, having OVER A MONTH of bad results has broken me - hell, two/three weeks of bad results has broken me. But this time, I just stuck it out. And that feels amazing! And it makes me believe I'm actually ready to do this; that this time I actually WILL achieve my goal. And that feeling simply can't be put into words!
I'm so glad I chose to stick it out and keep pushing forward. It wasn't easy, and there were definitely times I wanted to quit - but if I had, I would be right back where I've been so many times before - stuck, far from my goal, with no fight in me to keep pushing. I refuse to be in that place again. Bad weigh-ins are going to come. They are. The last five weeks are not going to be the last of it for me. But, I have to remember that, eventually, a number like the one today will show up, and it will make the struggle worth it - and so will FINALLY reaching my goal. I have to keep reminding myself of that, every single day, especially on the days when I look down and see number that I don't want to see. Those bad numbers can NOT convince me to quit. I look back on ALL the times I've quit before, and it makes me sick. What if I had just stuck with it? What if I had just trusted the process and kept doing the right things for my body? Where would I be now? It LITERALLY makes me sick. And I REFUSE to put myself in that same position again. RE-FUSE! This time, I'm doing this for the long haul. I have to. I can't let a string of bad weigh-ins break me again. I can get frustrated. I can get pissed. I can even feel defeated - but only for a MINUTE. Then I need to shake it off, get over it, and just keep moving. Period.
One last thing; I just wanted to give a quick update on my DietBet. Since I haven't posted my goals for a while, here's a quick recap of what they are:
Round | End Date | % to Lose |
Round Loss | Total Loss | Projected Weight |
Start | 1/21/15 | - | - | - | 201.4 |
1 | 2/20/15 | 3% | 6.0 | 6.0 | 195.4 |
2 | 3/20/15 | 6% | 6.1 | 12.1 | 189.3 |
3 | 4/20/15 | 8% | 4.0 | 16.1 | 185.3 |
4 | 5/20/15 | 9% | 2.0 | 18.1 | 183.3 |
5 | 6/20/15 | 10% | 2.0 | 20.1 | 181.3 |
6 | 7/20/15 | 10% | 0.0 | 20.1 | 181.3 |
I'm currently working on Round 3, with a goal of 8% (or 185.3 pounds) by April 20. In other words, as of today, I need to lose 2.1 pounds in a little less than two weeks in order to reach it. TOTALLY doable. This week's weigh-in REALLY helped. I'm not going to lie, I was worried that I was going to lose this round, again. But now things are looking up! Hopefully, like I said before, this week ISN'T a fluke, and I'm in store for some great numbers in the weeks to come - and with them, a WIN for Round 3!